Facebook Fasting

While I’ve been dealing with cancer, I’ve faced isolation alot with the accompanying depression. I like being alone, but facing my fears alone was too much for me. Facebook filled a need but I found myself sucked in more and more. Originally I joined because my chickadees had left the nest and it was easier to keep them in my sights on the network. Then of course, I began to be more active myself and they ran for their lives. Cancer though, was the reason that I became a 24/7 user.

After the horrific Manchester bombing, I just couldn’t take it anymore. I would have heard about the tragedy offline and been just as affected but on Facebook, the news is chased down with news stories about the demise of my country under this administration and the accompanying vitriol-back to back. I have bartended….its like beer, chased by tequila shots, followed by drunken brawls…only constantly.I’m not a political junkie because of Facebook but I am over exposed because of it. Too much information!

So here I am. Day 2.

What happened on Day 1? I found out that one can have Messenger and not Facebook. I am assured, ” Its better than texting!” Me: ” Gosh, what can be better than texting?! Sign me up!”

I also started knitting something and used Messenger to chat with an artist friend who I draw with. We compared notes and work. I felt odd…and finally realized that it was the underlying depression creeping up on me. So what did I do? I frigging opened an Instagram account ( will be deleting it shortly). Frying pan to the fire.

Day 2 ( so far): I slept in. Usually I wake up and take a med which requires an empty stomach for half an hour after. I usually catch up on facebook before making coffee. Instead, I slept! I will be sleeping a lot.

Today I am attending a “palliative care” meeting. The hospital is now requiring that all cancer patients who are ultimately terminal, to join. I’m not sure what they would do if I did not join…maybe break my fingers? I am attending because I am curious. This step is kind of creepy…its a pre hospice hospice. It could be years before I need it so I am not taking it that seriously. I just wonder what kind of grant they got to do this because with all of the upcoming dismantling, there is no way the hospital can require this from insurance without some kind of kick back.

However, I want to announce the appointment on Facebook! “Whoo hoo! I landed a palliative care meeting!” Like a job interview or something. 

I had a nice picture for you all today but its on my ipad camera. Instagram accepts images quite nicely from the very same device but this old dinosaur called wordpress? No. Uh. Uh. Archaic is its thing apparently.

I don’t know about this stuff anymore….is it worth the headache?

 

Advertisements

5 thoughts on “Facebook Fasting

  1. I so related to this post Linda.. The bombing so affected me also. I just spent days in my garden after it and turned off the radio even.. Hubby is a news addict and as we also have a General Election on going at the moment He tunes in regular, so its impossible unless I go outside to miss what is happening in the world.. And I am pleased the palliative care is working in your favour as you said in your next post..
    Love to you my friend.. Stay strong.. xxx I often wonder if I could cope with all you have gone through .. xxx LOVE and HUGS

    Like

  2. I may not be into Facebook, but I subscribe to a lot of Youtube channels. It’s another place, to receive information overload. Even though all the channels I subscribe to, are generally gardening related, I will do the occasional search for a DIY tutorial. The things which come up, can be perplexing.

    It’s nice, just to take a step back, and look at the immediate world around us. Even if that world is somewhat limited. I think what a lot of social media outlets do to people, is rob them of their imagination and creative problem solving skills. In exchange for a temporary haven of personal security. Hey, sometimes it’s helps, but it’s also hard to wean yourself off, if it’s your only support.

    I don’t want to demonise social media, but it does have a cost we need to know about. So we can muster the gumption to step away. Just like you have. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    • I love youtube as well but have never interacted with others on there. That seems to be my downfall. I use it instead of real life socializing which I actually don’t care for. I think social media is great for borderline introverts like myself. We can socialize on our own terms ( until we become addicted). However, I’m about 200% happier without it which trully surprised me. I thought I would only feel slightly better.
      Whats most surprising to me is how much more rested I feel. I really didnt expect that. I wont demonize it either but I find my world is far better without it. I might really not go back actually….not to facebook. I just cannot fathom an advantage right now.

      Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s